At some point in everyone’s life there is doubt that creeps in. Whether it be a test, paying a bill, relationships, and even doubting god. 

In John 20 we hear the story of doubting Thomas. Jesus’ disciples saw Jesus for the first time since He had been crucified and they were telling Thomas that they saw him. John 20:25 says, “So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord!” But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.” 

When Thomas finally saw Jesus he shouted, “My Lord and my God!” In John 20:29 Jesus says, “Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” Everyone told Thomas that Jesus was back and he didn’t believe them until he saw him with his own eyes. 

 In April of 2024 the day had finally come where I was going to ask Mr. Billy to marry Kelanie. My parents both told me I was going to be nervous, and I didn’t believe them one bit. All my friends and family told me the same thing, but still I didn’t believe them. 

As I pulled into their driveway I was still perfectly fine until I stepped inside their house. My heart started beating so fast to the point where I thought I was going to pass out! Mr. Billy and Mrs. Tera were in the living room, and they said hi to me as soon as I walked through the door. All I could do is wave at them without saying a word, and I walked straight to the hallway where my sister in law was and she saw just how nervous I was. 

I went into their bathroom and washed my face and once I gathered myself together I walked back into the living room and asked Mr. Billy if he could come help me with my truck outside. When we were outside my 3 year old nephew was out there rolling in the mud and throwing rocks at the road, which calmed my nerves and I finally asked him for his blessing. 

 All day everyone told me I was going to be nervous, and I didn’t believe them one bit until the moment finally came. More times than we want to admit we doubt God and his plan that he has on our lives. 

Jeremiah 29:11 says: “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” 

Jesus please help us to not doubt you and to trust your plan that you have for us.