Let me share when I talk about my upmost gratitude. It’s longer than usual, but worth the read.
I talk about the gratitude pretty frequently now. But just know, I use to hide it.
Hold on… I didn’t “hide” my gratitude.
I just didn’t talk about my desert journey. Maybe it hurts less when we don’t bring it to the surface? Or maybe us as humans rather just roll on with life and act like everything is fine. I guess it’s easier to talk about “God moving moments” on the back side. I really want to do better about talking about it in the mist of the desert. He was a faithful Father when the Israelites spent 40 years in the wilderness, and He is still faithful in your life today.
I have recently realized the true beauty of bragging on Jesus. I’ve realized how we really should make it known that He completely brought us out of the desert.
I still go back to that day. The day of bringing our first daughter home. It was November and cold with the sun out. Having children didn’t go any way how we had pictured, but that’s a chapter of our testimony for another time.
Here is my point for today:
I remember on the drive home telling my husband I prayed and prayed, and it didn’t go the way I prayed for. That confused me, & truly shook me. Why would I ever say that? We prayed fervently for 3 years to even be in this very moment, so know this was not a shout of complaining or disappointment. This was human nature shocked in a moment. I will always remember my husband’s response, he said; “It went exactly how we prayed. We prayed for 3 years to have a healthy baby, and God did that exactly.”
Then the gratitude hit me. Of course it didn’t go the way I had planned. His hands knitted all of it. He’s the author, not me.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose”. Romans 8:28
I love sitting back and reflecting on every single thing Christ has done in my life. I’m so heavy on the idea of He works all things together for the good. I’m a planner. I have leadership running through my blood. Although I have learned, my life will forever have better plans and guidance when Christ is holding the pen.
Flash forward to today. Oh the thankfulness I rejoice in. We have not one, but TWO healthy baby girls. I could tell you 10 + stories on ways and how the world thought otherwise through both of their stories. I won’t waste your time though, just know God was and always will be sovereign.
Because of the truth we have in scripture, the way He has shown up in my own life and those around me, I will forever have the upmost gratitude. He’s a good Father.
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