What is this feeling? This uneasy, shaky, paralyzing anxiousness resting with my soul. The struggle of my simple presence in the routine task of life. Why I am so uncertain? A pure lack of confidence, consumed with worry, and reinforcing a debilitating awareness of self-doubt. Not completely confident or sure of anything. Uncertainty, what is your deal? I need answers!
If you are remotely like me, the last 12-months has been filled with uncertainty. What will be the outcome of our nation impacted by a pandemic? How will our collective and individual futures be changed? What about the loss of life? What about employment opportunity, school, the short and long term effects on society as a whole? Uncertainty masks itself in a variety of forms. A chameleon by nature, adapting to each individual with the same detrimental result. How are we to deal with this bottomless lack of clarity? More specifically, as Christians who must functionally live in a world seemingly thriving on such a commodity, what are we to do? Let’s make this a touch more personal and take the first step of confessing uncertainty’s presence in my own life.
A couple of months ago I turned twenty-three years old. Instead of celebrating and enjoying the excitement for another year of life, I was consumed with a lack of clarity. What was I to do with my life now? What about my continuation of school? What about the beginning of a young career? What were my options now, post pandemic? I had a few ideas that “sounded” decent. Each would be “acceptable” and good career paths. However, missing from each was my own desire to pursue, to personally invest the passion necessary to achieve. What if I make the wrong choice? With that one thought, I began surrendering the solid ground of spiritual truth for unstable worldly thoughts and anxiety. What if I was not ready? What if I’m not good enough? What if I’m not smart or driven enough to excel? What if I become a failure? What if I’m already a failure? What will others say? Not knowing or having answers for the questions I was continuously asking myself left me feeling scared and defeated. I mean, surely, one must always have certainty and clarity for the choices made in life. Right? As I dealt with these personal experiences, I turned to God’s Word for answers.
The Bible says in John 15:19 “If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.” This verse quickly reminded me of the very real tension that exists between my spiritual walk in Christ functioning bodily in the everyday world. We, as Christians, are not of this world (1 Peter 2:11). Rather we have been called out of this world to a live a new life. God has transformed us, given us a new heart and new spirit. Therefore, was my seeking of continued comfort and certainty in the circumstances of the world misguided? Was that my problem? Was I really asking questions of myself and seeking counsel from the world? What was I to do? Take a deep breath….be still….
“Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” John 14:27 (NKJV)
I needed to guard my heart and shelter my mind in the truth of Christ and find sanctuary in His peace. We all will continue to experience a chaotic world that has more than its share of difficulties. God has a plan for each and every one of us. And, yes, sometimes it’s not what we might expect. All of us will face situations that are virtually incomprehensible. When faced with uncertainty, we have a choice. We can give in to the fear of the unknown or remain hopeful in God’s plan for our lives. We can cower in the world’s shadow or be an example of Christ’s light to all. Indeed, the complexities of this world are spinning quickly, but all is spinning under His watchful eye. With each passing moment, we all are another step further along on His plan and the journey He has laid out for our lives. This is right where we’re supposed to be.
In Romans 12:2 the Bible says “Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.”
Imagine how settling it would be if we let go of all our worries and cast our cares upon Him (Psalm 55:22). Instead of seeking answers for our life, we simply and resolutely seek Him (Matt. 6:33). Together, let’s take it all in. Let’s enjoy every moment this life has to offer. Instead of worrying when we don’t have the answers, let’s choose to focus on Christ‘s peace and His guidance. Let’s walk purposefully in the plan He has for us. In His strength we can fulfill His calling of peace, hope, and love!