This past year has been a bit difficult for me. I’ve had some big life impacting decisions to make. I’ve had to decide on where to go to college, what specific program will prepare me for what I want to do, and if it was truly God who was calling me away to college–specifically, to a small school in the cornfields of Indiana. To say it plainly, these types of decisions do not make a light load for a seventeen year old, especially one who struggles to decide what she’s having for lunch, much less what her career is going to be!
With all of these big life questions circling my head, I have always wondered if it’s truly God telling me to move or not. Are my own wants and desires driving me to move? Are my life long friends who live in Indiana the reason that I want to go? Is it truly God’s calling and will for me to leave the security and safety of my home?
One random afternoon when I was thinking about all of these questions, the song “Firm Foundation” by Cody Carnes came on. As I listened, I connected with the lyric, “I’ve still got joy in chaos, I’ve got peace that makes no sense.” Two weeks later at church camp, I heard that “if what we suspect to be God’s calling for our life has this supernatural peace surrounding it, it’s more often-than-not His voice.” That supernatural peace is a peace that makes no sense in the midst of the chaos. I thought about what I felt God is calling me to and I am one hundred and ten percent at peace with it. This peace is the kind I could never force myself to have or even try to make up; it is simply there.
Paul reminded the Philippians that “the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Jesus Christ.” (Phil 4:7) After praying about what I thought He was calling me to do and comparing what I felt He was saying to His word, I whole-heartidly believe that this is a true calling from Him. So, in less than a month, I will be leaving to go to college in Indiana to pursue a degree in Ministry…in the middle of the cornfields.
Who knows? I could be totally wrong. I could be missing something, but I’m taking this step in faith based on the evidence and the peace that God has given me. I know that if God is not in this, that He will reveal that to me clearly once I get there. I do know this though…I’ve got a peace that makes no sense, and that doesn’t just come from just anywhere.
If God is calling you to do something, whether it’s move across the country or to simply reach out to someone you haven’t spoken to in a while, I encourage you to truly pray and meditate on it and see if it is God. If it is, He will give you that supernatural peace and a simple “Yes Sir” would probably be the best answer!
If it has”peace that makes no sense,” Go for it! The creator might be trying to call you to a part of something bigger than you know!